In this world there are few things I am thankful for. After my grandpa died I thought about how long I would be around. I never knew I was going to be around this long. To be honest I thought I was going to die before seventh grade. I had a depression so bad it nearly killed me. I used to cry myself to sleep every night, smothering my tears into my pillow. I did things that I know I couldn’t do now. You could tell me I was the most amazing person you have ever met and I would just brush it off as if you were lying to me. I was so deep into that dark place where I felt nobody cared, nobody would notice I was gone. The only thing that actually kept me from taking my own life was probably my friends. I knew those few would be the ones missing me. No one really knew I was doing this to myself because I would go to school, I would hold this fake smile on my face to mask all my pain. To this day neither of my parents has any idea what I did to myself, any of it. Without my friends I would not be here. I would not be the person I am today. It’s still hard for me to discuss what I went through but I am getting better at knowing who I am and what my goal is in life. Since then I have made so much progress, it’s crazy. I’m confident, I’m happy. I just had to know that I was amazing just the way I was. My friends helped me know that. This thanksgiving I am thankful for having a chance to be here. I am also thankful for those people who care most about me, who were there for me in my time of need.
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