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Future

Where are you headed and why?

    To be perfectly honest, I’ve always been scared to death of the future. Although, ever since I was a little girl I have wanted to sing but my fears do get ahead of me. I’m scared of being judged and I have server stage fright. Besides, I don’t think I’m all that good. In any case, I’m not going on any kind of reality show to try and get someone to notice me. I really like to cook and my dad used to be a chef. So I might be thinking about becoming something like that someday. I love seeing the looks on people when I cook something really good, but I also want to be a little artsy with the food. My dad suggested a pastry chef. They make the most beautiful sweets! Another thing is possibly a director. I’ve always liked the idea of bringing my ideas to life through film. I mostly think music videos because I make my own impression off of that music. I’m not sure I could handle all the stress and pressure that comes with being a director.  Another possibility is being an artist. You know, like paintings and stuff. I’m not sure if I good enough for that either. I like to paint my feelings . . . which are mostly dark. I don’t think many people would like my idea of art. So it is most likely that I will become some sort of chef. I really do love to cook.

What do you want out of your life?

    Ever since the house fire last summer I’ve never really felt like this place was right for me anymore. I’ve wanted to move to Colorado with my dad. Though, the problem is I’ll miss my friends, and maybe the education won’t be as good there. One thing is for sure, I want that old burnt down house out of my life. My mom has become super religious since then, and she’s just not herself, not what she used to be. All she literally does is work on the house and church.  Still that doesn’t mean I want her out of my life. She basically is right now because I never see her. The same goes for my brother Matthew.  So the only thing I want out of my life is most likely the stress I’m feeling.

How do you plan on achieving your goals?

   I don’t really have an official plan.  I might start learning cooking technics from my dad, which will give me a head start.  Also going to a collage in Rochester for pastry making will help a lot. If I decide to be an artist I can learn a few things from my grandma who is amazing at making art of all kinds. If I become a director I can get a camera or digital recorder and post my work on YouTube.  I really don’t have that much of a chance at becoming a musician and the only chance I get is if I go on “American Idol”. That is not going to happen.